Sunday, October 30, 2011

Delicate power

I have been listening to Fabrizio Paterlini's piano compositions for over a week now, and I am infatuated with them. They are amazing. I'm listening to this one now:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PXyisLlJuCE

but if you like that one, you should SO do a deep search of all his music. And buy it from his site. And tell him how great it is. Because it's GREAT. I just did. I told him his music was so "delicately powerful". I liked this description. In fact, I liked it so much, that I wrote a blog post about it. Voilà.

Thursday, October 27, 2011

Ephemeral

Considering our own ephemerality. Life begins, then it ends. What make us different from the housefly? From the flower? The running piece of code? The conversation? The raindrop? The sporadic gust of wind? The heartbeat?

Strings

We people, our feelings, are like strings. Outside forces pluck us one way or the other, but regardless of what direction we are plucked towards, we'll oscillate a bit and eventually find a way to reestabilize.
Good for you, Andrea :)

Tuesday, October 25, 2011

Intention

Intention is the key. If you rely on chance to accomplish your tasks, they might be fulfilled, but you will have learned nothing.

Generalization

You know all of those phrases on facebook that are either puns or ironic plays on meaning to make you think about something? I can think of ways of describing these:

Paradoxical tautology
Oxymoronic truth
Ironic fact

I don't know. Something like that.
I gotta go take a cool shower. Bye.

Monday, October 24, 2011

Different

Things that are today may not be tomorrow. Even if they remain the same. Squeeze the potential off from your Now.

Intolerant

I just got a $45 parking ticket for leaving a rental car parked this morning in a residential area. It wasn't that long, come on. Fucking intolerant bastards.

Sunday, October 23, 2011

Rebel

I am the gentle rebel.
The polite rebel.
The silent rebel.
Who jaywalks.
Who won't put on his seatbelt.
Who stares into your eyes only slightly more than you expect.

Thursday, October 20, 2011

Semi-used clothing storage

Where do you store clothes that you used during the day but you still want to use tomorrow? Like those jeans you really like, or that shirt you used only for a few hours. I've been using the carpet, and sometimes the chair, but I wondered if anyone had found a neater or more standard place to store multi-day clothing. It would be especially useful for when you change your mind your next day and decide to put on clean clothes, but then you might accumulate two sets of lightly used clothes that you might want to use again. You don't want to fold them and put them back with the clean piles, and it's becoming a little pile on its own. What to do? What to do...

Wednesday, October 19, 2011

Property

Property motivates hoarding, which motivates selfishness, which motivates greed, which motivates a race to accumulate the most. Why? Have your stuff, but fucking share.

Conclusions

Both conclusions and decisions are essentially yours.

Saturday, October 15, 2011

Current

Like a drop of water flowing down the river, a lone person yields to the massive currents around him, and flows along with them. But then, would you rather see yourself as a helpless slave of the current, or as part of the force that creates the current, at every moment?

Wednesday, October 12, 2011

Further Miscellany

Alcohol injects randomness into our lives. That's how it manages to get out of our routinary lives, out of our comfort zone, and makes us try out new things, because situations suddenly begin to be different from the ones we're used to. Also, our senses are not as keen as usually. So we gotta act in whatever way we can.

Sept 21, 2011 08:09 PM

I don't want to be me any more. I want to be what I want. I WANT TO CHANGE

Sept 19, 2011 05:30 PM

Impossible to escape from consciousness

Sept 28, 2011 01:02 PM

viviendo una vida llenando expectativas
cumpliendo las metas que otros me trazan
me esperan, me admiran, por ser tan capaz
y yo que les creo, escondo mis deseos
olvido mis gustos, y mi exaltación
cortando paciente a mi corazón
los pedazos que no caben en el pinche modelo
que ya solo existe en mi jodida cabeza
que no entiende que no es lo que no es, sino lo que es.
que no vale lo que falta, sino lo que hay.

fuck you you told me i was good at math
and i fucking idiot believed you in faith
kept at it and sucked at it but kept at it more
disliking, mistasting, but knowing not what else to do

Sept 21, 2011 08:12 PM

Money weakens. It allows you to not be independent, to detach from your own needs. Over-interdependency. That's what it causes.

Sept 27, 2011 07:32 PM

Clean

What do you fuck do you gain with a clean record? A clean computer desktop, an organized room, a shiny coffee table? Self satisfaction. Indulgence of vanity or of knowing that you are clean and organized. What do you fuck do you get with that? What do you learn? Nothing, it is something you've already done. You don't learn by doing what you've done. Go fucking do something else.

Monday, October 3, 2011

Miscellany on Self

Sometimes I think my ideal of the person I want to be is unattainable, given my current state. I now also understand that that is fine. What I'm missing now is the belief. Knowledge does not imply belief. And it is upon belief that our feelings and our instinct operate.

Sept 16, 00:01

I DO NOT WANT HALF BAKED LOVE

Sept 17, 16:33, on Craig St, near Lulu's and Ali Baba

rumiante de half baked ideas.
las palabras lentas en la mente
se estancan, seguras de no llegar
acostumbradas a siempre llegar tarde

Sept 18, 22:38

fleeting arrows of words and image
that vanish before i understand them

Sept 19, 16:17

El mundo no es lo que pensamos
y si lo fuera, que jodido el mundo
que otorga su esencia a los confundidos

El futuro no sera lo que pensamos
y si lo fuera, que jodido el mundo
sin sorpresas que ofrecer

Sept 20, 13:11

he vivido lo cotidiano hasta lo harto
quiero ahora saber mas
sin temer lo desconocido
solo por ser diferente

cansado de lo comun
busco con ansia buscar mas alla
de lo que mis ojos han visto
mi piel ha sentido
mis labios han besado

busco querer encontrar
con toda mi esencia
alejarme de la apropiacion
matar su perpetuidad

Sept 20, 13:46

quiero expropiarme de mi mismo
todo lo que me he puesto encima
colores y deseos que no han sido mios
y que asfixian constantes la luz
atrapada

un canvas que otros han pintado
es obra de otros, el canvas es nada
solo un muñeco que lleva a cabo
el programa que otros te han dejado
desde la eternidad
y ya han olvidado

un mono se entrena, aprende los trucos
quiere ser bueno, quiere mostrarlos
y no encuentra a nadie que le importe
quien quiera saber de sus estupidos trucos

pues el truco era distraccion
que se ha convertido en vida
y el resto, en sueño olvidado

Sept 20, 14:04

la gente
se retrae de hacer y de hablar
por el miedo de contrariar
pero uno no esta hecho para complacer
y para temer ofender.
Sino que para ser, expresas, y cuando
se sienta, a respetar.
Pero se confunde el respeto con temor

Sept 20, 12:11

want to do what i haven't done
feel what i haven't felt
taste what i haven't tasted
love tempestuously
be what i don't know i am
but feel.....

Sept 21, 22:19

others' words were my criteria
my spirit hidden behind a curtain of
"the right"

Sept 22, 23:46

xq fucks la gente solo hace lo que le han
dicho que es su especializacion?
ingeniero, pintor, albañil, y no se
intenta lo demas??? solo se HACE
porque se hace

Sept 23, 01:15

Barriers built by us
for us
so many
we end up living a life
skirting them
living by their limitations
and not by our drive

Sept 23, 12:35

I've been a leaf floating in the wind
ambivalent to direction
now I want to be the wind
with my own drive, purpose, and life.

Sept 24, 17:44

i used to see life as a function to
optimize measures on: efficiency,
wealth, frugality, glory, food, with
mathematics as my lawyer, my
middleman. i now leave that ground

Sept 24, 18:20

have your own course of action. A
tempting, softer alternative is to
choose from options provided, available
at the moment. Do not let yourself
yield to the latter. It causes your
volition to languish and decay.

Sept 25, 14:09

Bottled up experience is not the experience at all.

Sept 25, 19:11, Flagstaff

Lo efímero es lo bello. Lo real, lo presente, lo único.

Sept 25, 19:23, Flagstaff

A lack of problems causes a lack of
need. And it is need which fuels
motivation. No wonder why people feel
unmotivated so often. Or why they
create needs, often frivolous, to stay
energized. I took the former approach.

Sept 27, 20:52

Orange moon

Orange moon, you came up soon,
they say you're made of cheese.
Only now do I see why,
brighter than Betelguese.

Projection

A large part of a person's growth consists in extending one's own representational space to understand more varied and more complex objects, concepts, and people. For what is observed is no more than what the senses can perceive, and no more than what the mind can represent...
What we understand is the world's projection onto the senses and mind.

Written Sept 12, 00:42, Fifth & Craig, SW corner.